Life can be messy. Life can be overwhelming. Life can knock you on your ass and kick you while your down and not look twice. We tend to lean towards a perspective where life is in charge. Like it’s an entity of its own passing out cards; some with hearts, some with queens, some with kings, some with jokers, and some being given a value that is basically useless. And your left to deal, except it is never your turn to shuffle.
But IT’S NOT! Your life is what you make it. It’s a hard concept to remember and grasp. It is difficult to look at your life and realize it’s your decisions and your choices that got you there. Now mind you I’m not talking about losing people or behaviors of those you love. You are not responsible for your parents divorce or for your loved one’s passing, on almost all occasions. But if you hate the job you’re at or your spouse isn’t paying attention, that’s something you have to own up to. You went to school or maybe you didn’t and now you hate that place you go to Monday through Friday. You don’t have to stay there you don’t have to settle for it. That’s just lazy. You have the option of going back to school or applying to other places or choosing a different path. And if your spouse isn’t paying attention to you, have you shown them the same attention you wish to receive. Do you share these feelings with them or do you live in the silence and cry in the shower? They may not even know your craving more.
I’m not saying that its going to be easy. Lately all I’ve been seeing and hearing is audiobooks and post from people killing it in what they LOVE doing. And what they are saying is, DO NOT QUIT. Keep going. Don’t stop pursuing your dreams, because it may be hard but your 100% never going to make it if you settle for something less.
Those are hard words to hear and I’m not going to lie and tell you I’m living my best life. I don’t like my job most days and my fresh marriage has a lot of communication quirks to work out, but at the end of the day Im giving it all I have to reach where I want and to do what I want. And to come home at the end of the day and really love what I’ve been doing.
This is really something that I struggle with. I want a different life but I’m not doing anything to change it. I’m not putting myself out there for change. Are you??
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